爱你

如果思念找不到人代替你 ，
我该如何放逐我自己 ；
是在深夜里无语，
还是迷失在雨季 ？

当一颗心全部都为了你，
我能做得到的什麽都可以 ；
你眼里的柔情，
吸引我不停的爱你 。。

恋人朋友分不清，
模糊了爱情意义 ；
我们不期而遇，
距离给予了美丽。。

无题

天上的星星，
有多少数不清；
承诺和许愿，
又有多少能兑现？

雨后的彩虹，
是真实还是梦？
上帝让我遇见了你，
是我们的邂逅吗？

多喜欢你从来不会说，
多在乎你到底懂不懂？
你有没有对我一点点心动？
爱我的话，给我回答，
我只等你，等你一句话。

再见，灰暗世界

你的心已离我而去,
你却不懂我的忧郁,
没有太多坏的情绪,
让誓言一字一句，
变成真实的甜蜜，
我只想要这样而已。。

你的眼神麻木,多么清楚
我已经不再是，
你所想要的那种幸福。。
不会再后退也不能再挽回,
我们之前的一切,
让我的心残废,
要多少智慧，
才能够无所谓?

爱上你，
你就是我世界的唯一
因为你，
让我学会珍惜；
我们的爱情，
虽成为过去
回忆，深藏在我心底。。

你不会知道也不可能会懂，
因为深爱你,所以选择了保持沉默，
因为我知道,太强求反而容易落空，
那不如保持一段距离吧
把对你的爱深藏在我心底
直到。。。。。。
永远永远。。。。。。

如果爱情可以瞬间忘记，
我又何苦那么的爱你？
你能看到我留在屏幕上的字，
却看不到我滴在键盘上的泪，
眼泪的滋味好像苦水，
我会一辈子记得你的好，
一辈子。。。。。
只因为曾经的我们，
都对彼此付出了真心。。。

我的梦狠狠的碎了，
因为曾经的我
相信了明天就是未来；
最初的天堂，最终的荒唐，
我和你再也不属于这个地方；
如果还有遗憾，又能怎样呢？
伤了痛了也懂了，
曾经的我们，
依靠在彼此的肩膀，
但如今，
各自都在人海流浪了。。

对和错，再提起，
早已没意义；
生命是一场不停的旅行，
分与和的距离，
一念间成定局；
来不及握在手里，
错过的就在一回不去。。

真假的爱情

爱来的时候
是真的
爱走的时候
是真的

被你伤害的人还真实的存在
你却生活中伤害你身边的人
真实的爱情
结束在真实的欺骗

在被真实的欺骗和伤害下
你失去了真实的爱情
有谁会理解你现在真实的伤害？
有谁会理解你当初真实的爱情？

Moody

ARRHHHH!!!gosh...I am totally wanna boom as I am totally in a bad mood rite now....early in the morning I got no mood at all...I was wondering y n watz wrong with me......effing god.....hate hate hate...I hate the feeling of missing someone...hate the feeling of being accused...hate the feeling of being scolded.........pls js get me out if here.....I js wanna to threw everything behind n threw all the bad,emo as well as stupid mood away from me.....

I am kind of dunno how to expressing my own feeling to ppl or might said that I am negative minded ppl....my impression might not be but in fact,I am...or else I can say tat sometimes,my laugh n my smile doesn't meant tat I am really happy in the time...I would rather being accused than explaining everything...may think I am stupid n noob.....But....this is true....sometimes,i will be thinking y am I js dun explaining??y y y??this is y????am I born to be??being blame by the CI is really worst enough n the thing is js because of the misunderstanding tat she thought Juliet n me was eating in the cafeteria..indeed,we r js drinking the coffee there...is tat being a student nurse cant be eating in the cafeteria n student nurse is meant to be ashamed???

I am missing u badly...wish to chat with u n expressing all the unhappy thing to u..but...not dare to text nor call u....I am scared to be annoyed u....was thinking on u for the whole day...should I said myself to be stupid or thinking too much...???I knew I shouldn't expect or think too much....i keep telling myself to stop it but it js cant.....i hv been trying so hard.....u r js non stop appearing on my mind...my oh my....................

Finally done with my expression here...wish it is js good enough n i will be recovered....Whatsoever,js wanna said tat I Miss U...

心

分与合的距离
一念间成定局
错过的就再也回不去

也许，
彼此越是在意
就越会承受不起

转身后的思念
一天天地堆积
无缘相守却又难忘记

对和错再提起
早已经没意义
只因生命是一场不停的旅行

那些曾经走过的悲喜
一切都已刻成了回忆
深深的烙印在我心里

A Bloody Hell CI

Early in the morning,i have been in the ward with a tiring and stressing mood as I knew I am gonna undergoes a bad day that I have to work together with u n need to face u again today......OMG......

The thing is without my expectation,I have been boomed like hell just because I cant answer the question....The question is,"1 ounce = ? ml " I was answering 15 n u gimme that stupid n idiot look....my oh my...I thought I have been estimated too much on it.....

Lastly,I found out the answer is 30ml....Anyway,u have just screwed me up that u had scold me like hell in front of my colleague...okay..tat is fine n I can accept it as I knew it is my fault for not remembering..U r just making my tears rolling non stop in the toilet.....

What the hell u talking on??what i should feel ashamed for myself , a failure , fooling n playing around n bla bla bla.....effing god!!!!i dunno how much I could take this anymore....I am really gonna lost my patient on u with u.......Stop pretending u r a genies there!!!!u dunno anything n u still need to go to ask the staff nurses n yet u scold me I should feel ashamed for myself??aren't u should too???I am just a student n u r a clinical instructor....who is the one should feel ashamed with???

I bet u have found out that I am totally mad at u...u know how much hate I put on u??I am swear tat when giving the evaluation for u,u will be the worst among us......I dun care n wont care whatever u wan to think n what u wan to do on my running assessment n evaluation.....I wil try my best to done it n need not ur help as ur help will bring so much of problem to me.......Cuz u r such a noob CI in the world...u should feel ashamed tat every staff in the ward is stabbing ur back cuz u r pretending to be so well known of the function of private sector especially in SunMed...

Whatever it is,i would prefer all those f words goes to u.............

Mess World

Today is the second week of working in SunMed....Still the same that I am working in pediatric ward...everyday is facing a lot of babies as well as children....quite interesting work as well as work that full with challenges.....Day by day,i am started to love my nursing again....i wish i could keep the feeling till the rest of my life........

Today I hv done an admission under CI Laila...what a bloody hell her that cant even pronounce well "accompanied" with "accompany"and yet want to blame me...what the hell n keep on mumbling at me...lol....head n ear feel pain with her voice...arrrh....I am swear tat i wont gonna let her to hv any chances to mumbling on me anymore with trying all my best to finish the work correctly,persistently,well as well as nice.......

Nothing else I done in the whole afternoon....lol...i din got any study mood indeed i wish to...what a lame excuse rite??lmao.....but seriously,u r js keep on appearing on my mind...I miss u badly...though everyday I talk bout hot chick on u..lol...I purposely wanna joke with u...hahaha...i guessed u will just killed me if u saw this...haha...I was wondering what have I spoken to u on the day I drunk badly...oh my effing god...I wish i could just fly back to the time I drunk n listen once more what have I did n spoken...lol.....