爱你

如果思念找不到人代替你 ，
我该如何放逐我自己 ；
是在深夜里无语，
还是迷失在雨季 ？

当一颗心全部都为了你，
我能做得到的什麽都可以 ；
你眼里的柔情，
吸引我不停的爱你 。。

恋人朋友分不清，
模糊了爱情意义 ；
我们不期而遇，
距离给予了美丽。。

无题

天上的星星，
有多少数不清；
承诺和许愿，
又有多少能兑现？

雨后的彩虹，
是真实还是梦？
上帝让我遇见了你，
是我们的邂逅吗？

多喜欢你从来不会说，
多在乎你到底懂不懂？
你有没有对我一点点心动？
爱我的话，给我回答，
我只等你，等你一句话。

再见，灰暗世界

你的心已离我而去,
你却不懂我的忧郁,
没有太多坏的情绪,
让誓言一字一句，
变成真实的甜蜜，
我只想要这样而已。。

你的眼神麻木,多么清楚
我已经不再是，
你所想要的那种幸福。。
不会再后退也不能再挽回,
我们之前的一切,
让我的心残废,
要多少智慧，
才能够无所谓?

爱上你，
你就是我世界的唯一
因为你，
让我学会珍惜；
我们的爱情，
虽成为过去
回忆，深藏在我心底。。

你不会知道也不可能会懂，
因为深爱你,所以选择了保持沉默，
因为我知道,太强求反而容易落空，
那不如保持一段距离吧
把对你的爱深藏在我心底
直到。。。。。。
永远永远。。。。。。

如果爱情可以瞬间忘记，
我又何苦那么的爱你？
你能看到我留在屏幕上的字，
却看不到我滴在键盘上的泪，
眼泪的滋味好像苦水，
我会一辈子记得你的好，
一辈子。。。。。
只因为曾经的我们，
都对彼此付出了真心。。。

我的梦狠狠的碎了，
因为曾经的我
相信了明天就是未来；
最初的天堂，最终的荒唐，
我和你再也不属于这个地方；
如果还有遗憾，又能怎样呢？
伤了痛了也懂了，
曾经的我们，
依靠在彼此的肩膀，
但如今，
各自都在人海流浪了。。

对和错，再提起，
早已没意义；
生命是一场不停的旅行，
分与和的距离，
一念间成定局；
来不及握在手里，
错过的就在一回不去。。

真假的爱情

爱来的时候
是真的
爱走的时候
是真的

被你伤害的人还真实的存在
你却生活中伤害你身边的人
真实的爱情
结束在真实的欺骗

在被真实的欺骗和伤害下
你失去了真实的爱情
有谁会理解你现在真实的伤害？
有谁会理解你当初真实的爱情？

Moody

ARRHHHH!!!gosh...I am totally wanna boom as I am totally in a bad mood rite now....early in the morning I got no mood at all...I was wondering y n watz wrong with me......effing god.....hate hate hate...I hate the feeling of missing someone...hate the feeling of being accused...hate the feeling of being scolded.........pls js get me out if here.....I js wanna to threw everything behind n threw all the bad,emo as well as stupid mood away from me.....

I am kind of dunno how to expressing my own feeling to ppl or might said that I am negative minded ppl....my impression might not be but in fact,I am...or else I can say tat sometimes,my laugh n my smile doesn't meant tat I am really happy in the time...I would rather being accused than explaining everything...may think I am stupid n noob.....But....this is true....sometimes,i will be thinking y am I js dun explaining??y y y??this is y????am I born to be??being blame by the CI is really worst enough n the thing is js because of the misunderstanding tat she thought Juliet n me was eating in the cafeteria..indeed,we r js drinking the coffee there...is tat being a student nurse cant be eating in the cafeteria n student nurse is meant to be ashamed???

I am missing u badly...wish to chat with u n expressing all the unhappy thing to u..but...not dare to text nor call u....I am scared to be annoyed u....was thinking on u for the whole day...should I said myself to be stupid or thinking too much...???I knew I shouldn't expect or think too much....i keep telling myself to stop it but it js cant.....i hv been trying so hard.....u r js non stop appearing on my mind...my oh my....................

Finally done with my expression here...wish it is js good enough n i will be recovered....Whatsoever,js wanna said tat I Miss U...

心

分与合的距离
一念间成定局
错过的就再也回不去

也许，
彼此越是在意
就越会承受不起

转身后的思念
一天天地堆积
无缘相守却又难忘记

对和错再提起
早已经没意义
只因生命是一场不停的旅行

那些曾经走过的悲喜
一切都已刻成了回忆
深深的烙印在我心里

A Bloody Hell CI

Early in the morning,i have been in the ward with a tiring and stressing mood as I knew I am gonna undergoes a bad day that I have to work together with u n need to face u again today......OMG......

The thing is without my expectation,I have been boomed like hell just because I cant answer the question....The question is,"1 ounce = ? ml " I was answering 15 n u gimme that stupid n idiot look....my oh my...I thought I have been estimated too much on it.....

Lastly,I found out the answer is 30ml....Anyway,u have just screwed me up that u had scold me like hell in front of my colleague...okay..tat is fine n I can accept it as I knew it is my fault for not remembering..U r just making my tears rolling non stop in the toilet.....

What the hell u talking on??what i should feel ashamed for myself , a failure , fooling n playing around n bla bla bla.....effing god!!!!i dunno how much I could take this anymore....I am really gonna lost my patient on u with u.......Stop pretending u r a genies there!!!!u dunno anything n u still need to go to ask the staff nurses n yet u scold me I should feel ashamed for myself??aren't u should too???I am just a student n u r a clinical instructor....who is the one should feel ashamed with???

I bet u have found out that I am totally mad at u...u know how much hate I put on u??I am swear tat when giving the evaluation for u,u will be the worst among us......I dun care n wont care whatever u wan to think n what u wan to do on my running assessment n evaluation.....I wil try my best to done it n need not ur help as ur help will bring so much of problem to me.......Cuz u r such a noob CI in the world...u should feel ashamed tat every staff in the ward is stabbing ur back cuz u r pretending to be so well known of the function of private sector especially in SunMed...

Whatever it is,i would prefer all those f words goes to u.............

Mess World

Today is the second week of working in SunMed....Still the same that I am working in pediatric ward...everyday is facing a lot of babies as well as children....quite interesting work as well as work that full with challenges.....Day by day,i am started to love my nursing again....i wish i could keep the feeling till the rest of my life........

Today I hv done an admission under CI Laila...what a bloody hell her that cant even pronounce well "accompanied" with "accompany"and yet want to blame me...what the hell n keep on mumbling at me...lol....head n ear feel pain with her voice...arrrh....I am swear tat i wont gonna let her to hv any chances to mumbling on me anymore with trying all my best to finish the work correctly,persistently,well as well as nice.......

Nothing else I done in the whole afternoon....lol...i din got any study mood indeed i wish to...what a lame excuse rite??lmao.....but seriously,u r js keep on appearing on my mind...I miss u badly...though everyday I talk bout hot chick on u..lol...I purposely wanna joke with u...hahaha...i guessed u will just killed me if u saw this...haha...I was wondering what have I spoken to u on the day I drunk badly...oh my effing god...I wish i could just fly back to the time I drunk n listen once more what have I did n spoken...lol.....

A Very First Day

Yesterday was the very first day for me to be working in the peds ward......lolz...was assigned to be a medication nurse...n attached to 2 medication staffnurse who is SN Tioh & SN Ngeow...both of them r js so nice....they teached me on how the machine functions,how to take care of the baby,etc....Sunway Medical Center is said to be a strict hospital...taking care of the pt especially babies is not an easy job..From ther,i learnt to be more confident,more responsible cuz i knew tat every single mistake tat i made,it will cause patient life as well as my future away..omg...touchwood touchwood...haha...

Today will be my 2nd day n I am actually assigned to be the Neonatal Jaundice(NNJ) nurse...hopefully ther will be the cases..lolz.....n wish tat everything is fine today..yesterday was a smooth day but i hope today will be as well...Early in the morning,i am awake n done my own brunch i think...n done my jounal as well as my lovely Gossip Girl...lolz...I am able to catch up till episode 5 today...hahaha...what a lovely drama..hehe....

I would like to end here as i am needed to prepare for work..lolz..miss~~~

Practical (26/10/09 - 29/1/10)

Finally reached Sunway safety....We departed at 7 o'clock in the morning...unfortunately,the bus hv late n came at 7.30am..swt.....Lol...This will be my very last practical as a student of Diploma In Nursing..Hooray...i js cant wait it to finished.....I wish everything will be fine for this practical though i understood n well to know tat this is a challenge for me to be working in such private sector....SUNWAY MEDICAL CENTER,here I am will be destinated in the coming days...

Leaving in the Pangsapuri Lagoon Perdana n it is on the 18th floor...the highest floor n i am now high up the sky...early in the morning,ther will be the breezing n peaceful environment..thank god my last posting is in Sunway n of cuz this is out of my expectation...Sunway is the place tat we used to shop n stayed in the previously.....right now,i am facing the block tat u used to stay previously...though it been a year ago,u r js fresh in my mind...How???how am i supposed to leave when my heart tells me to keep u....i wish....i wish u r js out of my mind......cuz....i am really tired now...seriously,i am tired....though I am still loving u but......I am really tired.......tired with carrying the memories with u as I knew both or us r in the different pathway before we r destinated n it wont be continue no matter how..js like what u said to me in the previous...

I will be here for 3 months...gonna celebrate my christmas as well as my new year here...omg..cant imagine the day to come n how crazy I will be....Even right now,I wish to shop lik crazy n of cuz i need my shopaholic buddies....lol....Sushi King,Sakei Sushi,Shogun,etc..I am swear i will get u within this practical...Sunway Lagoon,of cuz i wont gonna missed out u....hahaha......Early in the morning,I am awake now n counting down for the shopping time to come...haha....oh yeah,I swear i will get u later..Sushi King...Yeah!!!I love u...till here i end up my blog today...Love u all n thx for viewing my blog....

童话故事

是你，让我相信了童话故事的存在，
你说，我们会像童话故事里的结局，
是幸福快乐的结局。。
可是，现在的我们，
却什么都不是了。。

失去你的那瞬间，
失去你的世界里，
我的世界已变得一片黑暗了。。

因为，现在的我，已
失去了你给的爱，
失去了你的陪伴，
失去你的欢笑声，
是玩笑还是考验，
我们俩缘分那么浅。。

傻瓜

我离开了，真的能够带给你快乐吗？
我们，真的已走到该放弃的地步吗？
我不是一定要你回来，
只想告诉你，给予你的爱，
从没假过，一直都深爱着你。。
也许你再也不会相信，
也许你会觉得我很傻，但，
我愿意，真的愿意。。
成为那个永远爱着你的傻瓜。。。

10/10/2009 ---------- MALACCA

It was a Malacca one day trip tat we had planned before sem break..Well well,this is a pleasure,precious,memorable as well as exciting trip for me i think....all of us do had a nice day in Malacca...We started our journey at around 9.30 plus plus in the morning n reached bout 11 something...In this trip,ofcuz wont gonna left out our tour guide,Wei Zhong as well as Jing n Fong Ling..Both of them r also a "driver" for the trip....

Snap without Jing realize..You may see how concentrate it is Jing driving...

Once we reached,we went for our breakfast at a dimsum shop which brought by Wei Zhong....Those dimsum r js nice to eat..Yummy...too bad i din took the pic in it...Sobzz....
anyway,i may describe the taste is..........*thumb up*lolz...After we done our breakfast,ther goes the time for us to be treasuring the Malacca...We went to the museum,of cuz we gonna left out our well known A Famosa as well as all the way through Christ Church Malacca with the name of "Red House"in chinese...

Parts of the inner view of A Famosa

The views of Chist Church Melaka

Souvenirs Shop along the street of the "Red House"

Besides that,accidentally taken a pic in the A Famosa...a natural feeling pic which the glow of the sunshine can be so pretty...it brought me a feeling of peace n love.....

Glow of sunshine




Arts of a tree

Done our visit at A Famosa n "Red House",there we went for our Nyonya Dessert...It is nice....I ordered a Nata de Coco Ice Kacang..Hmm...yummy~~


Nata de Coco Ice Kacang..Doesn't it looks nice??

After the Ice Kacang melt

We went to Melaka Museums Corporation..It all bout a history of a ship,hows the cruisers' life especially in pirates...got the feeling of in the "Pirates Carribean"It is a nice place to be visited..had fun with my frens..we took lots of the pictures with the creativity we had..haha....


The overall view of the Ship

We finished the visit at 5.oopm...our stomach started to "dancing"...it is a sign of we should go n hunting for food...and of cuz,we wont gonna missed out the chance to taste the Malacca well known n tasty Chicken Rice...The rice r so cute tat all r round in shape..Made me js cant couldn't stop of snapping it...We ordered 40 of the round rice tat good enough to fullfill our empty stomach...i had 3 of it n a glass of Wheat Grass...another time,it is yummy..omg..i couldn't imagine how much weight i gonna put up after this trip as i eat all the way through...lolz..

Round Round Chicken Rice

The scary look of my Wheatgrass drink under the flash effect of SE C902

At 6pm sharp,we went to shopping along the street as well as the nite market of cuz...There got held an singing event n our handsome Wei Zhong took part on it...he sang well enough compared to those uncle n auntie..wat a nice song dedication for us..lolz...Wei Zhong,jia you!!u sing so well...haha...


The stage where the event held




Our Wei Zhong is singing on the stage

Then we went to the Menara Taming Sari...the night scenery reminds me of the Eye On Malaysia n recalled all the memories i used to hv with u at ther...deep in my heart,i js prayed tat i am able to enjoy the night scenery with u in the coming days because the night scene of Malacca is so lovely n i dun feel lik leaving ther..n i js wish u could be ther for me though it js a dream..


Here we come the Menara Taming Sari

The beautiful n creative "Beca"parking n waiting at the parking lots




The overall view of the Menara Taming Sari

The night scenery of Malacca

Though it was js a minute of spin but it is enough for me as i am so excited to go for the bungee jumping..omg...it been a long time i lost the feeling of flying high up the sky since the Dec 2006 in Gold Coast,Aus...However,the feedback i got from it was a long bruise line on my thigh...cuz i din fasten the seatbelt well enough..the worse is when i am done,i still got the feeling tat i am flying in the sky n i jumped down till i hurt my toes...damn it!!wat a ridiculous joke given by the God.....


Tickets for entering the coach of Menara Taming Sari & Bungee Jump




Bungee Jump




Feedbacks of the Bungee Jump

Time for supper!!!GO GO GO...there we came "Capital Satay Celup"...though i not really like to take satay sauce but it is first time i took this special satay celup style...We cook all the thing in satay sauce js lik the "Fei Zai Luk Luk"...it is so cute..tat made me ate 5 pieces of seafood tofu,2 stick of the "Char You Tiao"(in chinese),3 slices of "bak gua"(in hokkien) n a tin of coke...it is js nice n full for me...delicious n yummy yummy..i swear i gonna come back to u in the coming days if i got the chance....

Fong Ling & My foods

The satay sauce tat we used to cook

When it is done...LOlzz...feedback from us to the shop...wat a mess!!

Time's up for a day trip???definately no...lolz...we r able to make it to the jetty n had some fresh air after a heavy meal...Wei Zhong brought us ther n a very thank you for him as he helped me to discover a club in Malacca..."ARENA"...said to be nice from wat i see but not really know unless i tried it..gonna find a chance n try it out...wonder when.....js pray for the time to come as i am now have to breathing under assignments n class tests air...lolz...

ARENA

Here comes the end of our one day trip of Malacca...we started our way back to Nilai at 1 something early in the morning n everybody was exhausted bet....i had some rest all the way back..pity Jing n Wei Zhong hv to drive...We arrived safety at the college around 3 something in the morning....Although it is tired but worth it cuz it is a amazing trip n i did had fun with friends..Now i js cant wait for the next trip...what a BLAST day i ever had on 10th October 2009!!

Assignments' day

Assignments...u r js killing me........been sitting in front of the laptop for 5 hrs js for the assignments...Mdm Gnaesh,u r js killing ppl man!!!!wat the hell u keep asking ppl to do research..omg......Anybody can help me with the research?!!!i wish could scream as loud as i can..omg....it is so suffering with the assginments...stressful plus low immunity of my body...flu + cough + running nose...u r js good enough to kill me...

I am not zombie..so pls stayed away from me...stupid sickness...lolz....been so tired though i had a 2 hrs nap..wondering izzit i am getting old nowadays...lolz.....next year gonna be 21...omg...21 is coming...OMG + SOS!!!hahaha..i dun wan...wanna to be forever 18......though love to shop in Forever 21...wahahaha...Of cuz...today same as usual,having class,attached myself with facebook as well as msn...it's been my life to be reading on ur status n ur personal message even though it is hardly to see u online recently....bet u will be killing me if u know this..haha..sorry..i hv been telling myself to stop it but i failed..

I am wondering y today will got the mood to loitering in here...hmm..probably i am too boring n wanna to relieve all my stupid emotion here...lolz...gotta feeling to call u but lastly i failed to do so as i scare i might be disturbing u...Though a year gone but.....memoriess still fresh in my mind...deep in the nite,u images r js killing me....every single things from u,ur smile,ur voice,etc...was wondering is this a sign or a feeling of lost tat must be gone through by everybody in the world..it js killing me!!!

Hmm....wish tat u r having ur Spring nicely ther..n....u r having exam period....all the best n good luck to u..though i wish to say it directly but i knew i cant make it.....No matter wat it is,i wish i could know who am i for u rite now....am i said to be a stranger?a fren?a nightmare passer-by in ur life?or a person tat hv left a deep footprint in ur heart....??God the only person knows it.......but i can swear tat u r the person who had stepped in my heart 4 years ago n u hv never come out from ther till now though in reality,u r not ther anymore......Is tat a good thing??hmm...i wish to get the answer one day.....

想你

在寂寞的夜里，
回忆着我们的点点滴滴，
一切像是昨夜的一场梦。。

远方的你，近来好吗？
可否感觉到我对你的思念？
可否听见的我想对你的话？

我们真的就这样了吗？
我不想不要更不愿意，
因为真的真的很爱你。。

为何你就这样的离开了？
为何？是为何呢？
都是我不能理解的一切。。

还有好多好多的话想对你说，
也许现在的你不会听见，
我相信，只因为我相信你，
未来的日子里，
你会听的见。。。。。

This Is Life.....

Life is too short to wake up with regrets....

Love the people who treat you right,
Forget about the ones who don't....

Believe everything happens for a reason,
If you get a second chance, grab it with both hands....

If it changes your life, let it,
Nobody said life would be easy,
They just promised it would be worth it....

想对你说的话

如果我变成回忆,终于没那么幸运,
没机会白着头发,蹒跚牵着你看晚霞落尽,
漫长时光,总有一天
你会伤心痊愈..

爱情的伟大不害怕你的践踏,
就算输光了筹码,还有美好回忆能抵押..
爱你清晰的可怕,都怪我放不下
还拼命在心里面磨擦,任它痛,任它刮..
我该继续装聋作哑,还是抗拒深爱的代价??

苦涩来得好快,让你去作梦
让你去摸索,让你与我无关
爱已经累了,无法再负荷
你都没有错,错在我太寂寞
谁居心叵测,谁存心搅和
不必再挑拨,我现在只想撤
Let it go,别再说..
Let it go,别挽留...

真爱如今只剩残骸
灵魂留下空洞悲哀
你离开,爱不在
像是超现实的意外
上帝若能对我慷慨,
带我飞到天国之外
拥着你,说出来,除了你不爱...

你的心已离我而去,
你却不懂我的忧郁,
没有太多坏的情绪,
让誓言一字一句
变成真实的甜蜜
我只想要这样而已
你的眼神麻木,多么清楚
我已经不再是你所想要的那种幸福..

不会再后退
也不能再挽回,
我们之前的一切
让我的心残废
要多少智慧才能够无所谓?
我不想难过
你选择了沉默,
我们笑,把感伤轻轻带过
只是放开这样的你并不容易
为何这一切已注定不争气??

你离开的那一天
匆忙间,来不及说再见
失去你的这些日子,没改变
都是数不完的思念
是玩笑还是考验,
我们缘分那麽浅??
好想许一个愿,
要一个有你的永远.....

爱要耐心等待,仔细寻找,感觉很重要,
宁可空白了手等候一次真心的拥抱..

其实很多男孩子都不知道.....

其实很多男孩子都不知道，

女孩子在冲他们发火后自己转过身却在不断啜泣。

其实很多男孩子都不知道，

女孩子从来不会真正去生他们的气，因为她是真的喜欢他在乎他。

其实很多男孩子都不知道，女孩子只会对自己喜欢的男生唠唠叨叨，

也只会对自己喜欢的人耍性子。

你要知道，假若她不喜欢你，她根本不会来在乎你关心你，怕你做错事情。

你要知道，假若她不喜欢你，她根本不会对你发火不会冲你撒娇让你哄她，

在别人面前她都是淑女。

你要知道，假若她不喜欢你，你根本就没有本事让她哭泣，

让她即使生气也不会超过2天。

而这一切都只是因为她喜欢你，而这一切都因为你还不够在意她不够懂她。

于是，你们时常争吵，你认为她脾气不好，她认为你不够迁就她。

于是，你们总是冷战，你以为她不喜欢你，她以为你不在乎她。

于是，你们总是莫名其妙的彼此错过，也许擦身而过，本身就是一种悲伤着的无奈与幸福。
　　
要知道，凄美依然是美的一种，并且美的绚丽悲凉而沧桑，那是更加的美。

因为她喜欢你，所以她偶尔冲你发火，时常对你撒娇。

因为她喜欢你，所以她才会生你的气；

而又因为喜欢你，她才不会去生气很久。

你可知道，每个女孩子的心都是水晶做的，晶莹剔透，但是很容易就碰伤摔碎。

你可知道，每个女孩子都是不设防的，你那么轻易就闯进她的心，走的时候却只留下伤害。

她从来都不知道，这个世界上根本没有可以让她哭的人，

因为真正值得她哭的那个根本舍不得让她哭。

她会很矜持，
她会很骄傲，
她会很冷淡，
她总是嘴里说着你走开，心里却一直叫你留下。

你了解女孩吗?
　　
请你张开你的耳朵，
也请你打开你的心，
去听她心里真正的呼唤，
而不是她嘴里的口是心非。

她会看着你转身，然后她跟着你转身，当侧身而过的时候，

你看不见她的泪，滂沱在脸上心里。

如果你喜欢她，请你多陪她；
如果你喜欢她，请你多宠她；
如果你喜欢她，请你多让她。
如果你喜欢她，请你去听听她内心的声音，那是呐喊——请拥抱她。

在爱情里，总是彼此伤害，彷佛这样才能证明自己爱得激烈爱到轰轰烈烈。

可是，爱情里没有谁对谁错；

爱情里更加没有你比我多我比你少。

你爱她，她爱你，如此就已经足够。

不要试图让彼此的伤害，让彼此更加脆弱悲伤。

你们彼此相爱，你们需要的是温暖是幸福是甜蜜是快乐，不是伤害。

不要用沉默宣战，不要互不相让，

更不要什么话都不讲就冷漠离去。

要知道，你离去的时候，你的眼睛起了雾，她的眼角泛着泪光。

越是安静战火就越深，这是冷战也是彼此的伤害——

无论是怎么的复合，那些伤口曾经存在，抹不去。

请跟她一个拥抱，用你的拥抱去化解她心里的悲伤与眼角的泪水。

她喜欢你，她绝对不会拒绝你的拥抱，她只会害怕你的冷漠转身无声安静。　
　　　
请记住，相爱的人不要轻易宣战，因为冷战带来的伤害，超出你的预计。

也请记住，只要你喜欢她，没有什么是你接受不了的，

只要你喜欢她，就喜欢她的一切一切。

那么她所有的小性子所有的坏脾气所有的臭毛病，在你眼里都是撒娇。

也请记住，她喜欢你，她需要的不是你真的转身，她嘴里说着的也不是她的真心话。

她只是想你宠她，想你抱她，哪怕，没有道谦。